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Thursday, April 20, 2017

Perpetrator Tried to Manipulate Police Against Me

[ Update; I posted this and then took it down. I'm very distressed and keep going back and forth about how to deal with this situation. Puzzle pieces keep surfacing and clicking together and I am still in the mode of trying to prove the targeting, but also recently feel like it may not be safe to expose parts of it, especially those that involve other people. But I'd already posted this so it seems best to leave the core it up. See VIP the update at bottom of post.]

To make a long story short; My youngest teenage daughter fell prey to a man on the internet and was convinced that he was a good person. I had really bad feelings about him but could not reach her. It seemed like she had been brainwashed. She was not the type of teenager who would even do something like this - was not even into the dating scene yet. I think the brainwashing on her was severe before he even zoomed in on her and I now think it was done technologically.
   After a disturbing phone conversation with him, where he talked about things that were grossly inappropriate for him to say to his girlfriend's mother. I decided that the solution was to find out more about him, which turned out be a thirty something year old married pimp with a criminal record, after my X husband and I hired a private investigator to check him out.
   In the middle of my aim to save my daughter from him he called the police department, in the town where I owned my home, and appeared to have convinced the chief that I was the bad guy - that I had "threatened" him and was "harassing" him with phone calls and a private investigator who was "following" him around. I was totally innocent of the allegations. The Truth is that; The private investigator never left his office and had only done a bit of research. I honestly never threatened his life and had not harassed him with phone calls, but I had angrily blasted him and told him to leave my daughter alone. He, and the organization that I now feel certain he worked for, were the ones who were a threat - a serious threat to my daughters and I.
   Luckily I was able to prove that I had not harassed him with the three phone calls that were recorded to have come from my home, because my daughter admitted that she had called him. And luckily his lieing about the phone calls, in order to try to get me in trouble, helped my daughter to realize that he was not the nice man that he had portrayed to her.
   Now that I look back on this situation, with the knowledge I have of the targeting, it looks like the man was actually TRYING to provoke me, in order to gain an excuse to call the police. He had been pervertedly flaunting what he did to my daughter - obviously trying to get a negative reaction from me.
After my daughter was saved from him and living with friends, in order to avoid him, weird things started happening in my home, which were similar to the targeting vamp up I experienced in the early to mid 1990s. But aside from ongoing phone calls with silence or heavy breathing, the door to my home was being slammed in the middle of the night...etc., At that time, I did not know that I was being targeted and I thought it was probably being done by the man whom I had saved my daughter from - that he may have been lurking around to try to talk to my daughter and then retaliating against me when he found her not there. This was unlikely since he lived in Maryland or New Jersey, and we lived in New Hampshire, but, like I said, I was not aware of being targeted and could not imagine anyone else wanting to terrorize me. This forced me to aim to sell my home, which I no longer felt safe in.
   Since I started looking back at this situation, and other things surrounding it, I feel certain that this man was just part of a huge nasty sadistic targeting, which had started long before he came into the picture, included far more people than him, and had merely used him (possible hired him) to try to harm my daughter, turn her against me and manipulate my local police department against me. . .possibly before even worse happened.
This happened while I owned my Andover - Potter Place, NH home, which was destroyed in a suspicious fire, in May of 2001, while I was in the process of selling it. And this was the suspicious fire which destroyed the final manuscript of the book I had written to try to show people how "Embracing Feelings," and releasing them, instead of taking psychiatric pharmaceuticals, can open our Hearts and bring more Love into our troubled world...etc.

    I had lied to my daughters about why I was selling, because I did not want my youngest daughter to feel guilty about bringing this man into our lives, and I am now glad I did, because it was not her fault. She was an innocent victim of a darkness that she didn't stand a chance against, especially since I now feel certain that the obvious brain washing was aided by technological targeting of her brain. In the this situation she was far more of a victim than I was. It hurts so much to just think about what how much this whole situation must have hurt her. I feel OK with sharing this personal information, because she had told me I could share it in other writings and a lot of people know about it and, at one point, she had even aimed to share her experience at schools, in order to help educate other teenagers on the dangers of trusting men in chat rooms.I feel sad that the technological and covert harassment targeting, which continued after I moved, has prevented both of my daughters and I from processing and heal from our experiences with it. My other daughter was also hit hard with sudden, medically unexplainable temporary brain damage, during our five years in that home. I still long to be there for them, but fear that it may be too late for many things, even if the targeting were to stop and we were allowed to repair our relationships. To put it bluntly, it hurts like hell, what happened us back then and what has happened to us since then and the walls the targeting has built between my daughters and I. It hurts.

    I imagine that police departments must have a difficult time with situations where those who target us try to use them in order to hurt people like me. I was lucky, in this situation. They did not have me arrested or convicted of crimes that I did not commit, but I wonder how many victims have been framed. I hope that police departments are becoming more aware of the sadistic targeting, that they can be deceitfully used and that they can also be victims of the technological mind control part of the targeting. Perhaps this statement can help if it is shared. Please share it. God help us all.

[VIP Update on 4-24-2017; My copy of yesterday's update on this post has been disabled in my storage device. My daughter may not remember all of this, due to being a mind control victims, but it is true.
   I am deeply sorry that I ever posted this. Since I did, I have received demands to erase it; threats to withhold help; difficulties with my vehicle, painful torture through most of yesterday; someone accusing me of, or threatening to make it look like, I was lieing; and a street theater skit with a blue car and a dead animal in the road after a puppet said, "something happened."  Did a police officer get killed because I posted this? Are these things manipulations just to scare me or make me post this update...etc.? This is all just too horribly distressing! And they have a puppet who is sending a little boy to hang out near the library computer I am using to write this, which is a well established threat to frame me as a pedophile.
   I had a bad feeling after I posted it on the twentieth, but I did not know if it was technologically induced or my own instincts or due to a puppet walking by me and saying "killer"while I was writing it.
   I have regretted sharing as much as I have in the past few years, and have withheld some things, due to fear of the destruction of evidence and witnesses as well as retaliation, which appears to have been happening. But then I strongly feel that we are supposed to stand up and talk about what happens to us. And, since those who target us can actually read our minds, there are no secrets from them. . .and is it not best to let good people know as well?
   I had erased most of this post, in order to skirt around other possible issues. I just cannot handle anymore. Then I re-posted the part about my daughter. I'm all over the place with this, because I am so distressed - looking back and having puzzle pieces surfacing and then being surrounded by covert harassment while trying to sort it all out is horribly difficult, especially when the harassment holds the usual threat to deny or withhold the proper kinds of help. But I have left the core of this post up, in case something bad did happen due it being posted or could happen if it is erased.
   This post had originally contained my experience with the police chief.  I am deeply sorry if this was offensive or if it hurt anyone. It was not intended that way. I was just being honest about my experience, which also contained my empathy for police departments. I had not thought that this police department was involved in the targeting and had stated this. But after the hell I have been going through since I posted it I am wondering if I was wrong and I don't like feeling this way, but I am being too heavily targeted, while trying to remember and my head is spinning so bad that I just have to let it go for now.
   Perhaps it is best that I do not even try to share anything that involves other people, although many of them involved other people and most of it has already been shared. But how do I prove the targeting under the types of torturous suppression that I have experienced? The same types of things have happened when tried to write and mail reports to officials - those who target me monitor and know and interfere and sometimes torture and. . . so I keep returning to thinking that just being open/public and honest is the right way to handle it. But am I wrong?
   And, until officials are acknowledging the targeting, when we go anywhere for help we risk being labeled as "mentally ill" or being institutionalized or being enslaved!!! So what do we do? ]

Wednesday, April 19, 2017

Technologically Generated Bathroom Runs

   I'm sure I mentioned this before, but its worth another mention. I am going through another round of technologically induced bowel movements, which can be difficult to control, especially after they have technologically prevented a natural movement. This has usually been done a strategic times and appears to primarily be to inflict suffering, especially during those times when I am not near a bathroom and when they have puppets rush to occupy the gas station bathroom closest to me. This has happened a lot over the years.
   Before I realized the technological parts of the targeting I used to wonder why I would so consistently have to go to the bath when I went to my post office or the storage bin I used to have. Now I know. I had found a porta-potty at a little pond behind my post office, but they removed it after I started using it. The same thing was done at a park I used to go to.
   I am not a person who has ever had difficulty with or frequent urination...etc. This is definitely being technologically inflicted upon me. During one of the many times when I was resisting the erg they had a puppet walk into the room I was in and loudly scold, "You will go to the bathroom when I tell you to." They even sometimes let me know that they are about to start a round of this by having puppets walk near me saying things like, "Holy shit!" And I am being technologically tortured for writing this - am experiencing a sudden severe pain in my left side.

New Page for Targeted Individual Videos

  In my recent round of looking for Targeted Individual videos I have found that there are a lot of new ones on the web in the past couple years. But, sadly, many of the older ones appear to have vanished. I, of course, can relate to a lot of what is in them and I can recognize some of the typical stages of realization. But, to those who are not aware of what is happening to us they can be confusing. So, please watch them with your Heart.

  Targeted Individual videos are desperate cries
for understanding, care and the right kinds of help

   We desperately grope for who and why and how where there are too few answers. Is it this one or that one or coworkers or community members or my family or the government...etc.? But the manipulations and misinformation and interference with our brains makes it hard to be objective and often impossible to present ourselves as well as we could if we were not being targeted. When we look through our justifiable anger, from the prison of hell that our abusers have us trapped in, they all appear responsible, because some of them are involved either through participation or through an inability to protect us or through a baffling, careless, blind disbelief, which even tends to assume "mental illness" instead of giving us the benefit of doubt. If we are able to reach the point of realizing the horrible technological and pharmaceutical mind control's enslavement of humanity, and are able to look at the bigger picture, we can see that they are all victims too. But this is often too difficult to do while being tortured and feeling scared and desperate for help, especially in the initial stages of realizing that we are experiencing sadistic targeting and often being told that our own government...etc., is torturing and harassing us. Please excuse us and try to understand and care instead of judging us. God help us all.

 New Page for Targeted Individual Videos

Tuesday, April 18, 2017

Forums With Changeable Posts Feel Unsafe

   A few years ago, when facebook changed to the format of posts being alterable/editable I pulled away from that forum out of concern that my posts could be altered by those who target me and had already infiltrated those accounts more than once. I had also experienced the alterations of posts that I had commented on in a poetry forum where posts were editable. The alterations of either our writings or those that we comment on can create really bad situations for Targeted Individuals.
   This concern is raised again lately as I go through a round of making comments on a few Targeted Individual youtube videos, because those are now changeable as well. I hope what I write remains the way I wrote it, especially since I am now too broke to even do print outs of my writings. And I hope that things I have commented on remain as they were when I made the comment.

Monday, April 17, 2017

Cover Up of Technological Targeting?

Crippled Grope for Help
   It appears that those of us who are aware of, and have been exposing, the technological parts of the sadistic targeting may be in danger of being inflicted with other things that our symptoms can be blamed on - things like parasites or tumors or other ailments that appear to be natural but are also inflicted by those who target us. (They can not call us ALL "mentally ill" so I guess they need other avenues to cover up the technological targeting, especially that which is inflicted through space based technologies.) For example; a victim who "complains" about being lasered in the pubic area may end up with a parasite infliction that it can be blamed on. (This happened to me.) But the victim knows, because there is a very noticeable difference between the different types of inflictions. I also feel that things like morgellons has been being inflicted upon heavily "Targeted Individuals" so that the technological tortures can be blamed on the parasites...etc.
   Of course, "life happens" - people do get ill from natural causes...etc., (and it appears that humanity has been being experiencing parasite targeting on a massive scale) but the technological targetings are also happening. The inflictions to cover up the technological part of the targeting should not stop us from standing up against it, it just needs to also be exposed so they can not get away with it.

   They have periodically inflicted me with various types of parasites, including literally shooting ticks into my car last summer. Puppets walking or standing close behind me and putting something in my hood or on the back of my head has happened a lot, including just recently! ("Got you," they said after they recently did it!) I have actually caught them doing these things and some of them are hard to get rid of! There is a lot more but that is not what this post is for.
   They have been threatening to inflict me with various types of cancers and disabilities, in order to stop me from writing and, if they do, this can also be used to cover up the technological targeting, although that is what would be used to inflict the disability.
   They can only get away with technologically inflicting an illness, in order to hide other technological inflictions, if too many people, especially professionals who could help us) are not aware of the capabilities, and criminal use of radio wave technologies, especially space based laser weapons and microwave weapons, psychotronic weapons, RMN, DEWs...or whatever else they are now being called, in order to hide past reports of their criminal use. Please help spread awareness.

Attempts to Stop Me From Writing

    I recently experienced another round where my pen suddenly stopped writing although it was not out of ink. This has periodically happened, at strategic times, and happened severely around 2002 when I was trying to resurrect my "Embracing Feelings" book into "Embracing Sadness" after it the final manuscripts was destroyed in a suspicious fire. My pen would stop writing and I'd pick up another one and then that one would stop writing....and on it would go until I switched to a pencil, but then things like a sudden onset of extreme fatigue would sometimes hit me...etc. At that time I did not know anything about the covert or technological targeting, (I was completely oblivious) but I thought the pen thing was odd, because they were not running out of ink, I ended up thinking that it was probably from my home being colder than the norm and that perhaps this had an effect on the ink. I now think that they were either lasering the tips of my pens or doing something else to prevent them from functioning properly. And as I write this I am realizing that this is what pushed me more fully toward doing even my initial writings on a computer.
   The threat of inflicting me with a disability is also again happening lately and appears to be to stop me from writing. Aside from an increase of disabled puppets being placed around me, my right hand has periodically been going numb for no apparent reason. I woke this morning with both of my hands feeling numb and I feel that it was not due to the way I slept. My neck has been being lasered lately, particularly while I am doing blog posts that they obviously do not approve of.  This could easily look like its just a pinched nerve from tension or siting...etc., but it only happens at strategic times and not at other times when I sit for even longer or am even more distressed. I, of course, hope that I will be fine - that it is just another scare tactic.
   This morning, as I only thought about writing this blog post about the disabled pens and disability threats, I experienced sudden jabs of breath stopping pain in my right side, which lasted about five minutes and I believe that it was being done with a laser weapon. And then they sent me the usual "! Schneider" text message as I started logging into my blog.
   This morning I also woke with a projected dream which showed a cut phone wire after subjecting me to another perverted scene. I guess this means cutting off communications? As I wrote part of this post a puppet walked near me jiggling car keys, which appears to be a threat to disable my vehicle.

I guess I must be doing something right lately

Saturday, April 15, 2017

Attempts to Instigate an "Accident"

   I am experiencing another round of them trying to make me get into an "accident" with my car. A truck started quickly backing out of a driveway in front of me this morning. Vehicles, coming from the opposite direction, have been swerving over the yellow lines toward me...etc. These types of things suddenly started happening too often to be a coincidence and not be part of the targeting. And I have experienced many rounds of this.

Please Do Not Feel Misplaced Guilt

    Misplaced Guilt is Too Heavy of a Load

    I have carried a lot of guilt, which I've been trying to let go of. But I still feel it. Sometimes I look back and think about the various types of destruction of an uncountable numbers of lives through the past few decades, especially that of people whom I love. Over and over again I have beat myself up for not realizing the targeting sooner. There is so much I could have done for all of us if I had known before they finished shoving me into destitution and before they finished isolating me. My heart grieves for the losses. The grief would be healthy if I had the freedom and privacy to fully feel and release it. But most of the guilt is misplaced and is a heavy load on my shoulders.
   Now that I do realize more of the sadistic targeting, I often do not know how to handle it and sometimes feel like things I do or write or say are the wrong things. Sometimes I go through periods where I can not help but to just say whatever pops into my mind. I feel that this is due to the targeting of my brain, but do not know if it is being done with a drug or with technological interference. But I openly say things that I later feel like I should not have and then later feel guilty about it. And the list could go on.
   The deeper, wiser parts of myself, keep trying to console me; I was being too heavily targeted to realize things sooner; There is no way that I could know all the right ways to handle this baffling situation; I have no control over the intrusive targeting of my brain and life and they can read my mind anyway, so there are no secrets; And I have fought to expose the targeting for all of us, while often being tortured and threatened for doing so - I have been doing what I can under extremely difficult circumstances. But I still feel bad. And I do not want others to feel this way.
   Sometimes, as I think of things I've said or done, and as I write about what has been happening to me, I feel concerned about how other people may feel if or when they are allowed to realize or feel anything. So. . .

Dear family and loved ones, especially my daughters,
    I know that you have not believed me and that some of you even go so far as to blame me and/or take part in helping to target me through pushing for the "mental illness" label or depriving me of the kind of help I need most. This has probably made things less difficult for you and I actually find some comfort in knowing this, although I have felt hurt as well. I hope that, if you ever reach a point where your hearts can reach beyond the brainwashings, and realize the Truths about the sadistic targeting against me, (and you as well) I hope you do not blame yourselves, because it is not your fault. I know that there were times when I blamed you and I feel horribly sorry for that. None of this is your fault. You are victims too, just in a different way. I am so sorry that I could not protect you from it. I love you always. . .no matter what.

Dear Government Officials of all levels,
   I can not even imagine the struggles that you have been up against, especially for those of you who may be trying to figure out how to deal with this unusual crisis, which surely none have had much training with. So many people blame you that it must be difficult to deal with that part as well. I guess because you are the authorities we tend to assume that you know everything and have the power to immediately stop all crimes...etc. I am deeply sorry that I have sometimes blamed you for not being here for us in the ways that I feel are desperately needed. I am sorry that I had even barged into an FBI office, in 2012, and angrily said, "You have a responsibility to the citizens of this country..."  Since then I have felt/realized that many of you have been victims too and that you must have your own unique batches of struggles with this mess.
   The deeper wiser parts of me are now assuring me that those of you who want to do more to help us will as soon as you can and may be doing more than I realize. It is hard to feel reassured when my brain is being too heavily targeted. It is hard for my desperation to wait, especially when I am being heavily hit. And its hard to sense that some of you have been used in the targeting and that some of you are victims of the mind control too. But it is easier when my heart feels that the vast majority of you are good decent people who are surely doing all that you can. . .although you may never do what I want or need.
   I imagine that, as some of you start realizing the scope of this situation, it may be difficult to look at the trail of destruction of innocent and harmless lives, and the sly, deceptive enslavement of uncountable numbers of people, and wonder what you could have done differently if anything...etc. I hope you do not blame yourselves. I hope you do not let that guilt settle onto your shoulders, especially since those of us who are being heavily targeted have been unable to do proper or good reports due to the targeting vamping up when we try to (sometimes even when we just think to) get help. I have been doing my best to focus on the potential good, instead of the possible bad, no matter what I have been told, in every level of our government, because it keeps my hope alive and you are the ones who can save America and us and the rest of humanity. . .and how can you do that if you are being blamed, or are feeling misplaced guilt, for destroying it? Its not your fault. You have been victims too. I am so glad you are there and I can't bear the thought of your not being. May we all completely regain our freedom as quickly as possible.

Dear America,
   It is sad that so many blame you for the sadistic targeting of humanity and your own citizens. To those of us who are being heavily targeted, your communities can feel like empty holocaustal torture chambers. But it is not your fault. You have been being targeted too. You do not deserve the blame. The dark aim to gain control over you, in ways that have been too deceitful and covert, is not your fault. You are not the only country that this has been happening to - all of humanity has been being targeted, especially the people and countries that stood so strong for Freedom. Please peacefully stand up and set yourself free.

Dear Humanity
  It is a horribly sad situation where so much of you appears to have been being destroyed by the technological and pharmaceutical targeting, which prevents your natural process of personal growth - the very thing that life on Earth is for. Consequently, your Heart has been wounded. But its not your fault. You are not to blame. And you can recover.
   I feel, in the deepest parts of my heart and soul, that a Light is shining for humanity to regain the precious Freedom that has been being so ruthlessly and deceitfully torn away. It is reaching into the Hearts, all around the globe, who can stand up and restore our freedom. Please let it in. God's hands work through our Hearts and we must do our part. Lets do it. Please let your Heart stand up and save yourself from further destruction.

   Sadly, those who are apt to feel guilt are often the ones who should not take it on. . .and those who are responsible for the damage that has been being inflicted upon people are apt to not feel any guilt at all. The most damaging of all guilt is misplaced guilt and I hope it keeps being shrugged off instead of eating away at the strength of those whom humanity needs to stand strong and tall.

  P.S. I am again being technologically tortured as I write the "misplaced guilt" post.

A Stand for the Silent Targeted Individuals

    My fight to expose the sadistic targeting has always been for those of us who are being heavily targeted and, as I realized more of the scope of it - the mind control, for those who have been crippled by blind disbelief and manipulations that prevent them from realizing and helping in ways that have are needed. My heart aches for all of us, especially my estranged family members and other loved ones.
   There are several people who have been being as heavily targeted as me, for over a decade now, and the pain I feel for them is sometimes unbearable, because I know too well the indescribably suffering they have been being inflicted with. I do not know if I should list their names - if this would be good or bad for them. Its hard to know how to handle this situation. So I will not list the full names here.
   Two people who have been on the top of my list of worries are Billy and Mary who appear to have started being targeted around the time when things vamped up on me in the early 1990s.
   I call Billy, "Billy the Kid," because he used to tell me stories about how he and his military and/or law enforcement buddies used to go out to a remote place to target practice, sometimes literally blowing up old vehicles. I remember laughing with him as he told me that it was a great way to release pent up anger. After that I held a picture of him - a spiritual warrior with guns strapped to his sides, which was a comical contrast to his profession as a calm healer. I got a kick out of his style. I Love Billy. I always have. Not in a relationship type of way - he was like a brother to me. He had a good Heart and held a strong focus on spiritual and personal growth. He was a person whom I had always known I could turn to if times got tough. But as the targeting vamped up on me it hit him too, perhaps because he would have been here for me if I had turned to him.
  A couple of years ago I visited him. His hugs/care has helped to carry me through and his sharing of his difficult experiences helped me to feel less alone in this hell that too many of us have been being inflicted with. But I have hurt for him a lot. His experiences, which I feel were part of the sadistic targeting, included the loss of his license to practice medicine, a serious skiing "accident," and a head on collision with a police cruiser. I have felt that, the vehicle "accident" was not a real accident and that both Billy and the police officer were victims of the sadistic targeting.
   I do not know what has happened to Billy the Kid, at this point. I do not know if he has vanished or been enslaved, or been killed or is still hanging in there and struggling to survive it. I hope he is still surviving it. At this point I do not know if my interactions with him, and my previously sharing things about him being targeted, had helped or made things more difficult for him, but I hope it has helped.
    Mary was a special person in my life. Like, Billy, we were not supper close, but there was a mutual Love and respect. I love Mary as if she were my sister. Our souls strolled side by side in our process of personal and spiritual growth, especially in our yoga class and I think that those types of bonds can not be broken, because we can sometimes even feel each other's pain. Mary's experiences were very similar to mine - her work, which she did with deep levels of compassion for others, was sabotaged. And her beautiful Heart targeted. Her misery and fear have haunted me since I spoke to her in 2006. I do not know what has happened to her either, at this point. In 2015 I had a vision of her crying and crying and there was nothing I could do to help her. I felt her pain and have carried it with me. I keep praying that she is OK, but know that none of us can be OK in this hell we have been being surrounded by and hurt by.

This list could go on, but I need to stop here. 
God help us all to regain our freedom and have a chance to recover.

Thursday, April 13, 2017

Targeted Individual Videos

     I recently went through another round of looking at a few videos, which were made by other Targeted individuals (TIs) and its been like a knife in my heart. My own pain is triggered as I hear about some of the same things I've experienced. . .and it hurts to know how real this is - how many people are suffering through ongoing intentional inflictions of physical and psychological pain and how crippled we often are in the process of exposing or reporting it.
   Different Targeted Individuals experience different types of targetings, but the basic technological inflictions (especially mind control) and the covert harassment - gang stalking is all very similar. The darkest core of it appears to be some sort of sadistic/satanic occult which manipulates, brainwashes or enslaves and uses our loved ones and other people against us. And no matter who is doing it, or what we think it may be for, none of us deserve to be hurt. 
   Our stories are heart wrenching when we are allowed to fully tell them and share our feelings, but this has not been being allowed to much of a degree, when it is at all. So, I want to beg all who watch our videos to let your Hearts look past anything that seems off color, give us the benefit of your doubt and feel the gravity of our situation, because we are hurting indescribably through years, and sometimes even decades, of grossly inhumane, sadistic, covert tortures and harassment.
   The targeting tends to vamp up (especially the technological interference with our brains) when we aim to do things like reports, blogs, websites and videos, because those who target us do not want these holocaustal crimes exposed, and the result can be confusing to those who do not know what is happening to us. But most Targeted Individual videos, which I have seen, expose many Truths about the sadistic covert targeting, especially the "gang stalking" - covert harassment part, which is the heaviest focus for most of them, although the technological parts, especially the mind control, are the worst of it all.
    Many of our videos reflect the numb void of feelings that pharmaceutical and/or technological mind control targeting can inflict, but if you look with your Hearts you will see our confusion, fear and the excruciating pain that is tearing us up on the inside. Many of us are hurting indescribably and we need our fellow human beings to realize the Truth - that most of us (if not all) are not "mentally ill" and are being hurt in ways that no human being should have to endure, especially without validation, understanding and compassionate help from fellow human beings.
    Technological  mind control inflictions are evident in many of our videos, although most TIs seem either oblivious to this part of the targeting or are heeding the warnings (or threats?) of being institutionalized if we say anything about it. Some videos include outbursts of extreme anger and profanity, which are often mind control inflictions at strategic times, although we certainly have just cause to feel our own anger as well. (Who was it that said, "Underlying all anger is pain?" Its true and fear is also covered by anger, especially when we are being tortured for feeling it.) Some videos reflect strong lecturing about things that we are convinced will finally end the unbearable hell we are experiencing, but our ideas are not always accurate and not always our own.
   Some videos reflect the religion part of the targeting, which tries to convince us that turning to the bible and becoming a better person can make it all end, although personal growth can not happen under torturous manipulations. . .and those who are being heavily targeted appear to be people who already had big Hearts and its the targeting that has been hurting and blocking us. (I believe that it is very important to have Faith in the Highest Power, especially under these conditions, and that God/Light/Love works through people's Hearts whether they believe in it or not. However, both the technological and pharmaceutical targeting can block that vital part of us and prevents our own natural process of personal and spiritual growth.)
   Some videos reflect strong advise giving that comes from a yearn to want to help ourselves and others and sometimes from being told that we are the "chosen ones" who must save the world. (Too much is placed upon our shoulders and we can not accomplish it effectively while being targeted. We need other people's Hearts to stand up for us. I feel that the world will be saved by those who find the Heart to stand up with us.)
   Some videos reflect the confusion of misinformation, which is either deliberately fed to us by those who target us or is all that we can find on the web's limited exposure of this crisis. Some videos show hints of the fear and pain that we feel as we are told that all of the technological torture and harassment is being done by our own family members and/or our own government, although some people from these arenas are merely victims who are being used by the ones who are fully responsible.
   Some videos may be done by people who have been diagnosed/labeled/stigmatized with a "mental illness," the symptoms of which I feel are most often technological inflictions of our brains, in order to get us diagnosed and labeled and medicated so that we will be more controllable and so that people will not believe what is really happening to us. (I have fought hard to avoid them doing this to me, because the push has been ridiculously strong.) I feel that the vast majority of TIs are NOT "mentally ill" and are being tormented and/or tortured in ways that no human being should have to endure for any length of time.
   Many videos have probably been probably been removed from the web due to Targeted Individuals being threatened into silence, abducted or murdered. (Sadly, some Targeted Individuals may get completely taken over and become tools/puppets for those who target us.) Unfortunately, some videos are done by perpetration puppets (perps) who are just pretending to be heavily Targeted Individuals and appear to be either to make all TIs look crazy or to befriend real TIs in efforts to inflict more pain. But I feel that most of those who do these videos are victims who have been completely enslaved and are merely being used by the darkest perpetrators. The plight of completely enslaved mind control victims, who are used in the foreground of the covert targeting, seems worse than ours in some ways. Its horribly sad for them too, particularly for the ones who were tortured/forced/threatened into enslavement or compliance. My gut feeling is that not many people make a FREE CHOICE to do things that hurt us and that most of those who do tend to hide behind the scenes.

     I do not personally know any of the TIs in the videos I've gathered on the link below, except for myself. I have not even watched every minute of all of them. They are just a few examples. I tried to pick ones that either use real names, share personal experiences and do not too heavily leap into profanity, misplaced blame...etc. There are many others on the web that you can look up, but understand that, around the year 2012, many of us were warned/threatened into not using the "Targeted Individual" term so also check under things like "mind control victim" and "gangstalking victim" or "gang stalking victim." But my gut feeling is that most heavily Targeted Individuals are not on the web - like the ones that I knew personally who seemed too scared and ashamed of what has happened to them. And their feelings are justified, because some of us blame ourselves or have been threatened into not publicly saying anything and into not seeking help. Some just cannot handle anymore, while being slowly and inconspicuously destroyed. I hurt for them as well as myself. My stand has been for all of us. I'm sorry I've not been able to do a very good job with it, although this is not my fault.

   Please let your Heart reach past the manipulations that many of us Targeted Individuals have been surrounded by and/or filled with, and believe us - believe that we are being hurt in ways that should not be happening and should not be allowed to continue. The most painful part of the targeting is often the isolation and deprivation of being believed, validated, understood, supported, protected and loved in ways that are desperately needed. (I have been mostly isolated and homeless since around the year 2006, when I started realizing part of the targeting, and severely isolated since the fall of 2011 when things got even worse. I am being tortured for writing this - sudden infictions of physical pain in my neck and shoulders as well as puppets jabbering behind me.)

I am still praying for decent media and government officials, in America and around the globe, to honestly stand up and publicly validate all aspects of the targeting - to let their Hearts stand up for us and save humanity. . .and I have faith that they will as quickly as they can. God help us all.
Link to a Few Targeted Individual Videos

P.S. Since I saw some of the lipsinking videos, of last year's presidential debates, and have experienced multitudes of technological interference I am concerned that our words, in videos may be able to be altered. I hope this does not happen, but there needs to be an awareness of its possibility.
   I no longer try to connect with other TIs, except for little spurts of trying to offer validation to them, because I have been too heavily swarmed by the ones who are perpetration puppets and I have often been blocked from functional correspondence with genuine Targeted Individuals. Two that I have been obvious blocked from were Dr. John Hall in 2011 and also Rachael Orbin. Racheal appears to have been vanished - her youtube account has vanished and her first video is now being displayed by someone else. I do not know if that video is still the way it was. Her other video, which exposed some very important things about what both she and I have been experiencing now appears to have been erased completely. Has she been abducted?
   I had started sharing TI videos in 2012 but was being hit too hard and got too confused about who was or was not a perpetration puppet...etc. The people, whom I personally know to be heavily targeted, the way I am, are not on the web, and its hard to share things from people whom I do not know. But I have felt bad about not sharing more from other Targeted Individuals and now feel that I can not judge any of the videos, especially since I am being too heavily targeted, and am too overwhelmed with it all, to make accurate assessments. I hope this post helps to support all types of Targeted Individuals.

 Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Richmond City Counsel Meeting - A Bit of Hope

   My heart wanted to cry as I heard some of the people caring to standing up for Targeted Individuals in California. I wonder what came of it.

A wise plea to give Targeted Individuals the benefit of doubt; "Before you judge the Targeted Individuals I would suggest that you listen to them - take the time to really listen deeply to their experience. Try to put yourself in their shoes. . .If you can believe them then please do what you can to support them. If your not sure then I urge you to take the precautionary principal - when in doubt ere on the side of extra protection for those who are vulnerable. Please do adopt this resolution." https://youtu.be/bgjV4TWqNJQ?t=2m51s

Richmond City Counsel Meeting May 19, 2015 (second of 5 videos)


The Three Am Wake Up Calls

    At around three am this morning I was technologically woken from sleep with a technologically generated dream, and then experienced a technologically generated urge to go to the bathroom, and then was swarmed by puppets attempting the covert rescue thing when I drove to a gas station to use a bathroom where the cashier picked up a news paper and said, "He's dead"...etc. I have experienced things like this many times and I still feel that the covert "rescue" leads to complete enslavement, which is why it is often proceeded by threats or some other sort of terrorizing to make me want to leap into their vehicles.

Tuesday, April 11, 2017

Heart Bud Blog

I almost forgot about this blog

Disabled People Enslaved and Used

   Over and over again I have found my self feeling shocked by how many mentally disabled and physically deformed people are complete mind control victims. They have been bringing groups of them to places I frequent. It is all so sad that I just can not handle it well. How much of the condition of these people is caused by technological targeting? I feel that some of it surely is. . .and probably more than any of us would feel comfortable with realizing, but it must be realized and stopped.
   Their counselors or respite providers appear to be puppets as well. Just this morning one of them came next to me and pretended to be scolding her disabled client, repeating over and over again things like, "You are being bad" and "Stop that," which I feel sure was really a covert massage for me to not write the previous post about hairdressers being used to help target me. I felt sad for her client, being drilled like that. I feel sad for me too.

Professional Hairdressers Used in the Sadistic Covert Targeting!

Cut was supposed to be a simple angle from bangs to the back.
   My experiences with my hair being ruined by hair dressers have been too many to be normal or a coincidence. This has been happening, an uncountable number of times, through the past couple decades, but here are just a few examples, including yesterday's experience.
    In 2009, a hairdresser applied temporary die to cover my grey hairs without my permission. This was very disturbing, because I intentionally keep my grey hairs and had even written an article about how important it was to me to hold onto that "wisdom."
   Around 2010 I was keeping my hair long but went to add in a few layers, in order to lighten it up a bit and the hair dresser sliced into my hair, in the opposite angle from what should have been done, forcing me to cut off most of my hair, because such a huge chunk was cut extremely short on the side where it was supposed to be long. Yesterday, I got a gift certificate to have my hair cut and this hair dresser did the exact same type of cut, at the wrong angle, that the other one did. . .and then proceeded to do the opposite of what I wanted with the rest of my hair as well! I politely kept reminding her of how I wanted it (a very simple style) - bringing her attention to the pictures she had in front of her as she ignored it and hacked up my hair. I left fuming and wondering if she was a mind control victim, who had no idea of what she was doing, or a puppet who was cruelly following her master's orders to upset me by ruining my hair. (And did she intentionally keep digging her comb into the open sore I have on the back of my head? She had parted it there, as if to see it, before she started digging into it. This is not a place where there is part or that needed to be parted.) I decided that it was probably mostly intentional and done to upset and provoke me. (I felt unnatural levels of frustration through the whole process and feel that this was from technological targeting of my brain.) But I had a right to my own natural anger too. So, I later called her to let her know how disappointed I was. I do not feel that this did any good.
   Apparently, when we "complain" about what they do to us they just do it more or worse the next time, although this is NOT "complaining" it is standing up against something that is wrong and mean. (I was technologically tortured after standing up for myself.) I, of course, will not go there again, but its shocking how many people and organizations are controlled by (or chose to follow) those who target me and it seems to be growing through the past few decades.
   This time my hair is so short, and the "mistake" so sever, that it can not be fixed without practically shaving my head. I was able to fix most of the rest of what she did and didn't do and can just tuck my hair behind ears until the severely chopped out section (shown in the picture above) grows out. Its not a big deal, if it were an honest mistake and if things like this had not been happening for decades almost everywhere I go. But this is not the case.
   I can honestly say that I am not picky about my hair. Before I began realizing the extent of the sadistic covert targeting, and how many people it uses, I used to think that my experiences with hairdressers were just my bad luck and, by around the year 2010, had thought that most hair dressers had an attitude which prevented them from doing what their clients want instead of their own thing. But I now feel that my bad experiences with hair dressers were mostly, if not ALL, part of the targeting and its pattern of intentionally doing the opposite of what their victim wants and using their puppets or mind control victims in various organizations in order to do it. My hair is not the only thing they have done the opposite of what I want and need with. This sort of cruelty has been happening in most aspects of my life and I need it to stop.

 P.S. I feel sad for people who are complete mind control victims, even when they hurt me. I feel far less sympathetic with people who CHOSE to follow that darkness, especially when behaving in ways that are mean or hurtful to others. I can't know for sure which category this hairdresser fell into. If I were 100% sure that she was just a mind control victim I would not have said anything to her. But my feelings count too and, either way, the malicious intent is there in their leaders/controllers and its hard to live with to say the least.

Thursday, April 6, 2017

Hearts Open in the Void of Lawsuits

Hearts can open to help, instead of building defensive walls, when there are no lawsuits.
Lets let them.

Next Day Update; This is especially true in the sadistic targeting (the Technological Holocaust) situation, because those who are fully responsible for it seem to be aiming to set up their mind control victims, or people whom they have deceived, to be blamed as things are exposed.
   This crisis is filled with so many dark manipulations that we must be very careful not to assume and misplace blame, because those who look most guilty are apt to be completely innocent and visa versa. And, at this point, it appears that most of humanity is a victim in one way or the other. We should all be pulling together to stand up for ourselves and each other and the Freedom we need restored.
   We must do the best we can to listen to only our own hearts and instincts, although this is difficult until the technological and pharmaceutical mind control has been stopped, especially for those who are not aware of being controlled and those of us who are heavily targeted.
   Those who target me have periodically blocked my new posts that contain new realizations about the targeting. It appears that they are in some sort of competition and want to be the first to post or report things that I am in the process of sharing.  The last time this happened was with the post right before this one, in the morning of March 6, 2017. That post was blocked from sending a copy to my email and that of those who follow this blog. The day after I posted it I am also being blocked from accessing my blog through my email and had to try different browsers and computers, in order to post this update.  I am concerned that public reports, done by those who are actually doing the targeting, could add in the misplaced blame stuff, and pushes for lawsuits, which just perpetuates the targeting under the guise of helping to expose it. Its a hell of a racket that just has to be stopped.
   But please do not leap too quickly to judge those who report the targeting either, because it needs to be exposed. . .and some may be being honest and some may be just believing what they have been told and some may be unaware mind control victims who are merely being used by those who are fully responsible...etc. Its all very confusing. There has been a desperate need for professionals to honestly expose all aspects of the sadistic targeting and the technological enslavement of humanity. 
   I hope my information reaches beyond those who target me. . .to uncontrolled people who can do more to help expose and remedy the whole targeting situation. http://sharonpoet-ti.blogspot.com/2017/04/perfluorinated-chemicals-being-found-in.html

Perfluorinated Chemicals Found in New Hampshire Seacoast Area Water!

Please read all of this very carefully and follow your own Heart and instincts into doing all that you can to remedy the problem.

    I feel deeply concerned after reading a small WMUR report about an unusually large amount of "perfluorinated chemicals" being found in New Hampshire Seacoast area water. I wonder if this is part of the covert sadistic targeting of America and humanity. Is the contamination intentional or accidental?  Could it be part of the eugenics based and/or technological targetings?
    The technological applications of Fluorinated chemicals, and the fact that they are being found in water supplies would raise a red flag for anyone who is aware of the technological targeting of humanity. And I hope it is seriously investigated by those who can freely do so.
   If "Fluorinated chemicals - FluoroTechnology...are used…to enable high-speed data transfer” in technologies, could it also be used to aid technological/radio wave mind control or other forms of technological targeting when it is ingested into human bodies?

   Polymer fibers have been being found in victims of the mysterious “Morgellons Dissease,” which is common in heavily Targeted Individuals.

This definition states that Polymer fibers are “used in telecommunications” and that it “transmits light (for illumination or data)”; https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Plastic_optical_fiber

Polymer fibers are also reported to have been used to help liquids float in the air for longer, like what may be used in chem-trails. Is this the same thing? I don't know.

Please research this further. I can not do much right now. And please help stop it from continuing no matter what it is from or for.

     I feel that we are already faced with horrific holocaustal levels, of an enslavement of humanity, which utilizes technological mind control that has been aided by microchips and continues to be greatly aided by certain types of pharmaceuticals, (especially antidepressants) which have been being heavily pushed upon people and even reported to be found in a couple dozen public water supplies in America in 2008.


   Those who target me have periodically blocked my new posts that contain new realizations about the targeting. It appears that they are in some sort of competition and want to be the first to post or report things that I am in the process of sharing.  The last time this happened was with this post, in the morning of March 6, 2017. That post was blocked from sending a copy to my email and that of those who follow this blog. The day after I posted it I am also being blocked from accessing my blog through my email and had to try different browsers and computers, in order to post this update.  I am concerned that public reports, done by those who are actually doing the targeting, could add in the misplaced blame stuff, and pushes for lawsuits, which just perpetuates the targeting under the guise of helping to expose it. Its a hell of a racket that just has to be stopped.
   But please do not leap too quickly to judge those who report the targeting either, because it needs to be exposed. . .and some may be being honest and some may be just believing what they have been told and some may be unaware mind control victims who are merely being used by those who are fully responsible...etc. Its all very confusing. There has been a desperate need for professionals to honestly expose all aspects of the sadistic targeting and the technological enslavement of humanity. 
   I hope my information reaches beyond those who target me. . .to uncontrolled people who can do more to help expose and remedy the whole targeting situation. http://sharonpoet-ti.blogspot.com/2017/04/perfluorinated-chemicals-being-found-in.html

Shine Through Dark Clouds

   Yesterday I just wanted to cry all day. I held it back, because I did not want the technological torture to get worse than it already was. But it vamped up a bit anyway! Go figure. But I feel a bit better today.

 I hope this New England rain quickly goes out to sea and prevents flooding.

Wednesday, April 5, 2017

Gas Leak Scare

   Yesterday afternoon I had an odd experience with a strong propane gas odor at a laundromat. As we talked about the gas odor, another customer, who was watching the TV, noticed a news story about a Salem, NH home that blew up due to a gas leak. Of course I wonder if this was a coincidence, because the media seems to be used in the targeting a lot.
   There were three of us there, but none of us took it seriously until in the end when, after having the door open, the gas odor was still really strong in one corner of the room. Up until then we were actually joking around. I never felt like I was in danger there. But this was one of those rare times when I was pretended that my life is normal and everything is fine, because I'd just gone through a difficult round of the targeting and was still in physical pain from the technological torture part of it.
  After the fire department was called, I left. Then it hit me and I wondered if someone may have actually caused a gas leak due to knowing that I was going there. Then I wondered if it was not really a gas leak, but something that smelled like gas in an effort to terrorize me. But, like most events around my being targeted, its too confusing to be sure what was happening if anything at all.
   But it was interesting how one of the customers told me that she has gotten sick and had to have a surgery right after starting the last two jobs she'd gotten. Was she being targeted? Was it a coincidence? Or was she a puppet delivering a message/threat to me, because I keep going through rounds of thinking about getting a job, although my work and other jobs have also gotten sabotaged, in various ways, and have been used to put me through even worse levels of the targeting. Its sad to think of how many people this may be happening to.

I am Sorry

   My writings have not ever intended to blame or complain about good decent people or places. I have sometimes been terrorized or manipulated into misplacing blame. I have sometimes gotten caught up in my written fight against the whole targeting situation, because I so desperately need the targeting to be stopped. Sometimes my defiance against the dark force that targets me has unfairly weaved into other areas - my defenses are sometimes very strong, especially while I am under attack. I have sometimes been blinded by the technological tortures, which can be like being caught up in a tornado while flailing for unreachable solid ground and searching for Light at the end of the dark tunnel. My emotions are sometimes manipulated by those who target me - the functionality of my brain has often been effected by the radio wave part of the targeting. I have often felt overwhelmed - sometimes the covert harassment blends with innocent things and its impossible to know what is what. I have sometimes been bogged down by the depths of my own pain - my heart aches for all of us. I have sometimes forgotten important things and am sometimes unsure of exactly what is happening and why.
   In my heart I know that a Light shines for all of us and this hell will come to an end - the heart of humanity will stand up to set itself free as soon as it can. I don't want to complain, but the wait has been arduous and my desperation sometimes grips me too strongly, especially when my brain is being attacked with radio wave targeting. I know that I have not dealt with much of this very effectively. I am deeply sorry. Please forgive me and try to look past my blunders.

Friday, March 31, 2017

It Appears that my Car Has Been Again Disabled

[UPDATE two days later; I went through a scare with my car but got it fixed. Also experienced heavy torture of my brain the next day. Feel shell shocked. ]

Please do not disable my car.
I don't deserve more pain.
Its all I can do to hold on
In this snowing rain.
I can not handle more.
Please let my car run.
I am not safe this way.
Don't let it be done.

    Please do not disable my car/home - please do not dump me in the streets and leave me completely at the mercy of those who target me and try to force me into enslavement.

Alteration in The Heart Bud

   I have often found the word heart changed to heat in my writings. This has been happening since 2005. And has been pretty consistent in my writings about my Heart Bud Publication. I do not think it is my mistake and I want it to stop.

Safety and Freedom Instead

Safety and Freedom Instead

I feel like I have an
Axe over my head.
Do I love it
Or end up dead?
But I want safety
And Freedom instead.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves,
And COURAGE, God...to make a STAND That saves our lives and FREEs our land.

P.S. Please stop the covert games. I am in no position to make choices that are not mine to make. Its all just too confusing and I want it to stop.

Wednesday, March 29, 2017

The Issue of Trust

   There have been many people, whom I had been close to, that have been either brainwashed into thinking that I am just "mentally ill" or have been being used in the covert program that tortures me, harasses me and tries to force me into enslavement. I can not completely trust any of these people  (not even well known loved ones) until the technological mind control is completely and genuinely stopped on all of them and they can follow only their own hearts and instincts. I also need that freedom and hope it happens soon (like now) for all of us. 
    I can care, for the mind control victims who have been brainwashed against me, but all of my experiences, through the past few decades, have shown me that they can not be a source of comfort or support for me when they treat me badly or do not understand and just keep trying to convince me that I am "mentally ill."  I can also care about people who have been forced/tortured/enslaved into the covert program, but my heart keeps telling me to only fully trust what is not covert and is honest and not controlled - what is proven to be good and trustworthy. In the best of situations, full trust is earned through direct, positive interactions and that is magnified for those of us who are being sadistically targeted
   I used to be extremely trusting - I instantly trusted everyone unless they proved to be untrustworthy. But, realizing that I am being targeted by ill intending people has raised my guards. And sadly, due to the technological mind control targeting, people are not always who they were.
   I have a really hard time dealing with covert stuff, because that is what is used to harass/hurt me and due to my inability to comprehend it and why on earth it even exists except to support the dark targeting and enslavement of humanity. I can understand why covert stuff has to exist in places like the FBI...etc. But in my situation it seems like the whole world has turned covert - its common citizens and people whom I used to know who now even say that they are not who they are if I ask them! Those who act covertly merely add to my discomfort, confusion and distress, whether that is what they are trying to do or not. Its all just too crazy-making!
   Those who are not controlled, are aware, and want to help me or be here for me, can do it overtly - directly/openly and honestly so that it can be a comfort to me and so that trust can be built. Though there is a risk to fully be here for me while I am being targeted, I feel that the danger is primarily due to the secrecy and my isolation from other people. It appears that the less isolated a heavily Targeted Individual is the safer it is for other people to be here for us, especially those who are aware. . .and its safer for us too.
   Its been extremely difficult to be facing all of this, and struggling to survive, the sadistic targeting so completely alone. Sometimes its harder to think that there is help and care, which remains out of my reach. That scenario can be like a form of torture in itself. I have needed people to be here for me - fully HERE for me. Please let your Hearts help break the lethal silence and the isolation that surrounds Targeted Individuals. . .me too.

God help us all to be totally set free
And have a chance to recover

More Torture

    Yesterday I was tortured so painfully, that I had a hard time moving, while I tried writing a letter to  law enforcement officials. This morning I was tortured as my thoughts rejected a dream they projected into my brain and seemed to be for the purpose of trying to get me to go stay with an old acquaintance whom I now believe was one of the perpetrators they planted into my life in the early 1990s. This man appears to be completely technologically controlled and it probably happened during a massive surgery, which left a scar up the front of his chest and stomach.

Tuesday, March 28, 2017

For Care Instead of Fights and Dark Set Ups

   I feel that if the dark forces, which target us all, keep getting their way it will result in even more fights between members of targeted families, fights between heavily targeted or enslaved victims, fights between heavily targeted people and the government, fights between government agencies, fights between countries, covert wars between all of the above...etc., while the REAL criminals remain free to continue enjoying the chaos they create. . .and this just has to stop.
   I hope to prevent the unfair blaming fights from continuing in my personal situation, because we have all been hurt too much already. And I hope you do everything in your power to help prevent it in other places. 

   Those who have been forced into the covert program and used to help target me also need genuine help and freedom. I have witnessed too many of them, (especially my family members) being targeted/traumatized/tortured and/or drugged, into being brainwashed or into complete enslavement, to not realize that they are victims too. We have already all suffered too much pain and misplaced blame and we all need compassionate help and understanding and protection from further harm.
   I do not condone any of the targeting, especially not the crimes that drug and/or torture me with laser weapons...etc. And the covert stuff drives me crazy! But it seems that the only way this hell can Truly start ending is with compassionate understanding for those who have been tortured/forced into enslavement, and used against their will, as well as for heavier targets like myself. We are all suffering. . .just in different ways. We are all victims who need our freedom restored. (This does not excuse criminal behaviors.)

    Speaking of a need for compassion; I also strongly feel that good decent people have been being used to help enslave human beings, under the guise of it being a "rescue," and that those good people did not know what they were doing and should not be blamed either. The darkest ones who deceived them and set them up to be blamed, and who have also been literally torturing and drugging people into technological enslavement, are the ones who are responsible.

   I feel that heavily targeted families should be helped with understanding, protection and compassion and its just too horribly sad that this has not yet been able to happen. The technological mind control is so widespread, so unusual, and is surrounded by so many dark manipulations (including demands for secrecy), that the proper kinds of help have not yet been able to be here for us. Judging by my insights, and things I've read, there are too many victims who are in need of having freedom restored and too few who can care to help in the ways that are needed most. And its all just too horribly sad for everyone. I keep wondering why criminal use of the space and ground based radio wave technologies have not been stopped, but I am ignorant in that field and feel sure its one of those things that is far easier said than done.

   For me, my "family" includes loved ones and neighbors and other people whom I care about. I have been fighting to expose the sadistic targeting, and its mind control tactics, in order to get help for all of us, since the end of 2011 when I started realizing the scope of it. Our situation has worsened since then and I do not know what will happen to us, but I hope it will end with Freedom completely restored so that recovery can begin, especially for my daughters and key witnesses whose lives I have been deeply worried about. There does not appear to be much of us left. God help us all.

    I had a dream, which showed people (government officials and citizens) safely standing up and pulling together to help and support each other and I am holding onto my vision of that even though it now appears impossible in my personal situation. I hope it soon happens somewhere so that a peaceful and compassionate stand up can grow and hope for complete freedom can spread through humanity.

God help us all

Accounts Compromised?

   I have been recently experiencing malfunctioning  in the sending of codes to access my Ramblings of a Targeted Individual blog and the account for my websites and I am concerned that those who target me may be getting back up codes for access. I hope they do not succeed with this.
   They also access my blog and writings through infiltrating the computers I use. And I hope they do not continue to succeed with this either.

   I have been deeply concerned that those who target me may be making my writings the way they want them to be, in order to support their manipulations and set ups. I hope this is not happening. But it has appeared to be.

Saturday, March 25, 2017

Heart Over Mind for Humankind

   I think that there are many who are being used in the covert program that targets fellow human beings. . .and that some are unaware of being enslaved and used in a fight for freedom that is actually helping to destroy Freedom. Those of you who get mean and vindictive are the ones who are in the deepest need of being set free, in order to listen to and follow only your own instincts and Hearts, instead of the torturous program that has you enslaved. I hope you regain the Freedom to use your Hearts instead of fighting wars or seeking revenge...etc. Perhaps some of you are not too enslaved to try to follow your Heart above all else?


    And please stop sending me "schneider" messages when I try to follow my heart above all else. I'm not doing nearly a good enough job with following my heart due to being too heavily targeted, but I need to do the best I can, even though its nearly impossible when my brain is being lasered and/or I am being traumatized...etc. Please at least try to join me in that effort. I know your job is to target me, but it doesn't have to be and it shouldn't be. We all need to be set free - you and them and me. Please help it be.

Too Much At the Mercy

    I often feel like my life and my writings are too much at the mercy of those who target me and infiltrate the computers I use. . .and it feels horrible, especially since I do not know what their intentions are with most of the alterations of my writings. I feel too powerless in my own life and it has become too difficult to not remain in a state of distress even when I am not experiencing rounds of being tortured and traumatized. But I am doing the best I can to hang in here. I'm praying for strength, but there is only so much a person can take. I hope for all who are aware of the targeting to make a record of it and pass it to as many people as possible. . .and openly stand up with your Heart.

The Heart of Humanity Can Stand Up And Save
Itself From Further Destruction. Please Let It.

Friday, March 24, 2017

My Post About the Elections Was Erased

   I had actually recently fully resurrected the (2016) post I wrote after watching some of the presidential debates and felt worried about Trump winning over people like Kasich. In it I had expressed my concerns that a free election could not take place with technological mind control manipulating American citizens. But it now appears that someone has completely erased that post from this blog and also altered the emails of the original posts. Why? And what else has been being manipulated?
   I have noticed that some of those who target me became Trump fans. And people whom I know to be long term mind control victims became Trump fans, which seemed completely contrary to their natural values. And I STILL do not think this is a coincidence.

God help America

   It appears that a large batch of  blog entries is missing from the 14th edition of the book of this blog, about three months worth. It appears that they have changed the pdf on the web, to an earlier version. But I have not had the chance to confirm this.

Its just too intrusive for my writings to be being altered!
And it seems to be just to hide crimes so they can continue.
Please stop!

My Pass to a Public Computer Used by Someone Else After I left?

   I had used the Milford, NH library this morning. Around 10:30 I had closed out of the computer I was using, but then spontaneously decided to log back on about ten minutes later. But I was not able to log back on due to the computer system saying that another participant was already logged on with that pass. The librarian too quickly denied that anyone was using it, although there was no way she could have really known that. There was not a mistake of my forgetting to log off, because I returned to the same computer, that I had been using, and it had been logged off. It appears that someone else had logged into a computer, with the number that the librarian gave to me, after they thought I left. I can not help but wonder how many other times this could have happened and what they are up to.

P.S. Yesterday the time of my printing from a library computer was being interfered with - it was changed to being two hours later than it really was.  This sort of thing probably happens more than I realize.

Serious Round of Torture

    I have been experiencing a painful round of torture, which includes what feels like the lasering of the back right part of my head, since late yesterday morning.  I am sorry if someone has an issue with my posts. I know that i make a lot of mistakes, especially when I am being tortured or am in distress.
  Obviously there is an issue with my writing anything about the targeting, but I cannot join the lethal silence that enables the enslavement of humanity and the dark covert wars against harmless people....etc. I was never part of the program - I never took any vow of silence. And my heart wants to stand up for all of us, including those who obviously are not being allowed to.

I'm on the Side of Peacefully Standing Up for
Freedom for All. Which side are you on?

God Help us All


P.S. Those who get mean and vindictive are the ones who are in the deepest need of being set free, in order to be able to listen to and follow their own instincts and Hearts, instead of the torturous program that has them enslaved.

Monday, March 20, 2017

Care for Law Enforcement

   Through the past few years, as I struggle to figure things out, while still being targeted and writing about my experiences, there are times when it may look like I blame local or state law enforcement, FBI, military...etc. But in my heart I really don't, especially since I've learned a bit more about what has been happening, beyond my personal situation, with the technological and pharmaceutical mind control targeting. . .and that many of you have been victims too. I began realizing this around 2012 when I passed papers out to law enforcement places, but did not do a very good job with it while being targeted through it. But here I go again. . .   I can understand that this situation has been difficult to comprehend, especially when the information is delivered from a person who is being too heavily targeted to articulate things very well. Who would want to believe that technological mind control happens through things like radio waves, which satellites send down for internet access, even if we were not being brainwashed into blind disbelief? But my gut feeling has been that it is a reality, not only for those of us who are being sadistically targeted (and our families) but also for every level of law enforcement. Since the dark aim seems to be to take over America, as well as the rest of humanity, there are probably more unaware mind control victims in our government then anywhere else.
   I beg every level of law enforcement, including military and FBI, to investigate this more fully and obtain UNFILTERED* radio wave detection and blocking technologies, especially since it is possible that certain modes of "protection" and "rescues" from the technological targeting may have included deceitful mind control enslavement. . .and since good, unaware people have probably been used in the foreground of these operations.
   I beg you to protect yourselves and please do not allow yourselves to be used in the dark covert program that has been enslaving people and sadistically targeting harmless people like me. Those dark forces could even perform set ups and use our judicial system, in order to inflict more harm upon heavily Targeted Individuals and our families. I beg you to openly stand up FOR US and WITH US instead of allowing yourselves to be used against us. There are many, who suffer indescribably and need the sadistic targetings to be openly acknowledged. NON-covert stands can help you to regain your Freedom as well. Please let your Hearts help break the silence that has enabled the dark force's success through the past few decades.

    When I think of our armed forces (of all kinds) being completely free of the technological mind control I feel safe and secure and know that the vast majority of them will follow their own instincts and Hearts instead of the dark covert program that has been aiming to take over America. And when I think of our law enforcement and military being enslaved/controlled by the dark forces, that sadistically target me and my loved ones, I feel terrified. So, I beg all levels of law enforcement to please openly stand up for the Freedom that has been being ripped away from all of us (including you) for too long.

Please follow only your own Hearts and instincts
and do your best to be here for those of us who have
been being hurt for too long. We need you.

*I have suspected that new radio wave detection technologies may have had filters built into them, in order to prevent detection of the low frequencies that are used for mind control. And I suspect that the same may have happened to the technologies that can block radio wave targeting.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

 P.S. I know that my care for you seems a bit selfish, because I want you to regain your freedom and the awareness to stand up for us as well as yourselves. But I do care for you too. We all count. We do.